Working problems

I had never really thought I would mind going back to work after having a child. My mom worked my whole childhood, and I never thought I would do it any differently. Because of that, my husband and I didn't prepare for a single income household. 3 months pp I went back to work full time, and I absolutely hate it! I literally cry before leaving to go to work at least half of the time. I want so badly to be able to make being a SAHM work, but it's not in the books right now. I hate not tucking my daughter in at night. I hate not being the consistent face she sees when she goes to bed, takes a nap, or plays her games. I hate that I can't keep consistency in her schedule. I hate that I missed the first time she crawled. I hate that I hate my job....I am the one who hold insurance for our family, so it's not an option to leave at this time. I've explored so many other jobs, and none of them are worth taking because they won't offer health insurance. I am so tired all the time, because I work nights, and sacrifice so much sleep to try and be with my child. I miss her, I miss sleeping with my husband at night, and I miss being home. I just had to get this out there, because I feel like no one else around me understands since none of them have children yet.