One year later...

I haven't told anyone about what happened to me.... that night.... him..

It was one of the darkest stages of my life, I was just out of a relationship, parents recently divorced.. we lost everything.

I started partying all the time and fucking around w some guys (until I found someone that I fucked w for a bit). I was constantly drinking and smoking (both things I was never fond of before) and then one night at a party it just happened. I was drunk which means I was already unable to consent... and i said no anyways but still, he didn't care...

Now I live with this secret everyday, and idk what to do... its been almost a year since it happens, the date coming up In a week, im still not over what happened.. and idk if I ever will be. I have no one to talk to (not that I really want someone to talk to about it face to face...)