Having doubts

Hi everybody umm... I feel depressed & cursed. So I've been trying for a while to get pregnant I've had a miscarriage a year ago then do to stress my period had gotten heavier. I went to the doctor a couple months ago & found out I don't ovulate on my own. So my doctor prescribed clomid he didn't monitor me or do blood work I took it & was in pain. It made me kinda feel like I was pregnant even had dreams of being pregnant. When I found out I wasn't I went into a dark place & I'm at the point now if I'm not able to get pregnant I rather just stop the meds & just not have a child. It's so much things that that I deal with emotionally, physically, & mentally. That I rather give up. I don't have the money to try & do IVF & where I live it's not many doctors who can help me get pregnant. 😞