And I'm really nervous. Kind of excited but mostly nervous. And I know it's a bit ridiculous but... I'm obsessing over my SO's ex right now. They have a son. During our relationship, for some reason he's felt it appropriate to compare me to her on numerous occasions. Anything I do that annoys him or irritated him or makes him made he'll make a point to tell me I'm acting like his baby mama. Or he'll compare things I do or don't do so well to her. And today I should feel happy and excited and really I'm just worried that in his mind he's just going to thinking about how this experience with me compares to his experience with her. I can't even feel happy right now. I feel like I'm being crazy. But I can't help myself. It really hurts me when he does this but he doesn't seem to care and now I just can't shake the feeling that I won't be a good enough mother. Or a good enough girlfriend. But in a few hours I'll finally see my little jelly bean growing and I'm hoping that'll make me feel better.