just venting

I know there's someone who's gonna judge. idc. but sometimes I sit & wonder if my life would be better if I wasn't 19 with a baby. sometimes I really feel like I totally threw my life away. like what if I would've got an abortion but at the same time I look at her & im so glad I didn't. sometimes I'm still stoked that she's real lol she's such a doll. it's so confusing & annoying.