This week we found out that my partners cancer is back. He has been in remission for going on 7 months now.

Due to his treatment he got last time we were lucky enough that he had remained fertile but we don't think after this round he will be. But in saying that I would rather him not be fertile than to loose him.

I'm so emotionally drained ATM I'm so scared that I might loose him this time. I no that I have to think positive but it's quite hard after having been through this before.

I'm sorry about this post I just needed to get it off my chest