Feeling alone and like crap

I live with my other half in a different country than my family, I haven't seen any family or friends in over a year. I work nights and I finally have family coming over on Thursday so I work Sunday, Wednesday and tonight so I can be off for them coming over. In the meantime his grandfather passed away and the funeral was the Monday so I went to work 8pm-8am come home get ready and go to the funeral and get home at 2pm so by the time I got to sleep was near 3pm and he was at the pub with his family, he came home with his cousin at 5:40 and woke me to say they were going for a meal and wanted me to go, I explained I was far too tired and he flipped saying I was being a bitch and a wan**r and I explained I wasn't arguing with him infront of his cousin and on the day of his grandad funeral I understand he's angry and grieving but Im not being guilt tripped into going somewhere I do not want. I was in tears (af so double emotional) his cousin came into get his bag and then told his family I'm obviously so moody because I didntsay bye. Today his family was at the pub again and we have barely any money like 30 to do us to Friday including buses for work and he goes off to the pub and spends money so I have to call in sick because I've only enough money to do tomorrow night! I'm so fed up and I feel like a bitch and I know his family will be thinking I'm the bad one in the situation