Feeling selfish

I want chocolate cake so bad. I want to cheat so bad. I know this is for my baby and I will be good because his health is way more important than my sweet tooth. It's only been 2 weeks and some days I just want to have the biggest tantrum ever over sugar. Sheesh I'm so selfish sometimes. I think having GD might be a really positive thing for me. I never noticed how strong the sugar cravings are and how accustom I was to having that sweet fix before bed every night.

I met with the endocrinologist and I wasn't really impressed. She had no advice for my fasting numbers "that's just the one we don't get to impact with our food choices" and I'm just waiting for my appointment with the doctor. If he wants me on a medication to lower those numbers then I'll put on my big girl panties and just take it. Attitude adjustment in progress but it's been a rough road.