I've realized

That I desperately want to be single. 13 years in a relationship, bad sex & bored as fuck. We have a kid together and I feel bad even saying this. But he is what keeps us together. We started this relationship at a very young age. And honestly I just want to be free. Im always throwing indirects about not being engaged or married, and today he was talking as usual about "one day getting married, but as he was talking about... I thought I don't want to be married with you. I feel stuck, I wish I had girlfriends to talk to or someone who I could just move with so I could be independent