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I feel so out of control. I have felt with depression on and off since high school and anxiety too. The last year or so my anxiety has gotten so out of control. It's hard for me to leave the house, be around people, even close family. My husband is the only thing that seems to call my nerves. I feel horrible though for putting so much on him. He's so supportive though. I wish there was something I could do to just make it all go away. Medication only does so much and I have small child so getting out to see a Dr for myself is really difficult. I just feel so lost and manic.