Just another 8 long and terrifying months to go. Praying this bean sticks! I want this baby so so bad, i had a loss in Feb and another loss in June. I've held my tummy multiple times a day and I tell this little poppyseed that mummy loves you. I ask him/her to stick with me. That I couldn't handle losing this.

I know it's all in a plan. But behind every exciting thought about our future is an evil saying "but what if I lose you again"

Any ladies pregnant with their rainbow that can offer some kind words on how to be 100% excited about this pregnancy. I keep telling myself it'll be fine, that this is it, we're going to make it to 9months