two week wait

I am in my two week wait, and just like the rest of you I am keeping even closer track of my body than normal. everything is a potential pregnancy sign. was my body doing that before? that's new, and it's a pregnancy symptom! there's just one problem though. I don't feel the same this time as I did last time. I don't feel the for sure pregnancy symptoms that I felt with my first. maybe that's a good thing though? we lost our first, so shouldn't I not want to feel the same? I can remember the nausea, and the hot flashes, and the hard tummy. it's hard going through the two week wait after you just recently had your BFP just to lose it all and start all over again. I'm trying to stay positive, but I promise you that is difficult. I don't want to be in my two week wait again. I want to be excited about going to my ultrasound and picking out clothes. not worried that I might lose my baby again if I even am pregnant. I'm just ready for my fiance and I to be parents.