my heart hurts

my bpydriend of one year..told me he dosent want anymore kids he haa three from a previous marriage. mind u this isnt the first time weve dated this is our third time he was my first love and we lost pur virginity to each other and up until a few months ago i didnt even know i could get pregnant but i was ans unfortunately it was an ectopic pregancy. and i could have a surgery to fix the problem with my other overy and was asking him about it and he blew up on me saying if u get pregant ill resent u and if i don't give u a baby you'll resent me...it hurt me very bad and he has since apologized but i still feel sad and also before him i didnt want kids at all..idk im prob just crazy and think to much but im hurt 🙁