Baby shower


So it is nearly two months since I lost my baby. I was ten Weeks pregnant when we had a miscarriage. Most days are good and others, like today, are not so good.

My friends and family have been amazing and so supportive. However one of my closest and oldest friends is pregnant and today is her baby shower. I thought I was ok with it all and was feeling strong. I have already cried three times today before leaving the house over silly things and now here I am sitting in a coffee shop half an hour before the shower starts feeling nervous and emotional. I know I have to be be brave and be strong for my friend, this is her day and it is not my place to be selfish and think about myself. This is the first time that I will have seen her since the miscarriage. Am I right to be feeling nervous about this and emotional? Or am I being selfish and silly?