Beyond done

After all the hell and struggle to try and be okay through 5 miscarriages and trying to make our miracle..I'm just fucking done. Recently been given the full infertile diagnosis and a hysterectomy is staring me in the face, it's been a hard month. Starting to feel better..then bam. I got the news another friend is pregnant. Everyone is popping out babies or pregnant. I'm so beyond happy for the many ladies in my life that are getting to experience this. But fuck it's killing me. I have no one to talk to because I'm the only broken female I know.