Anxiety and pregnancy

My anxiety is in full gear, I wish I could just find my baby’s heart beat on my doppler at home so I could stop losing my damn mind. All I want to do is hide in bed and ball my eyes out, and over what? I don’t even know anything wrong, and that’s exactly what’s wrong. All my symptoms have disappeared, I’m just a few days shy of 10 weeks, I woke up with energy, I even cooked breakfast which I haven’t done in forever. I haven’t cramped, I haven’t bled, I haven’t had any typical miscarriage symptoms except that I feel totally and 100% fine, I would so much rather be hugging the toilet, or feel like dog shit, so my brain would quit driving my bat shit crazy. I have a doctors appt Friday and I can’t wait for it. I want to know everything’s okay, or even if it’s not okay I just want to know. I want to know what is going on. I don’t know what I’m expecting to get out of this post, I just needed to write something somewhere. I needed to be able to get my feelings out to someone other than my fiancé who is just going to tell me to quit worrying.