I'm a virgin *sigh*

Hey girls I'm 20 years old going in 21 in December. Can you believe I've stayed a virgin all this time because i hate my boobs? It's sad really. I'm afraid to be intimate because i feel like whoever I'm having sex with will hate my flaw just as much as I do.

It gets me so angry sometimes. Because one day I'll be so sure of myself and confident and think 'the next boy that likes me can have sex with me' but then one day I'll be taking a picture of myself and find a flaw that I believe no one else will love me for. So I won't let men get too emotionally close that we end up sleeping together cause then he'll see these flaws. Lol. I have a whole system😭

What can I do to open up a little more enough to actually be able to take my clothes off in front of a man