so I've been raped, sexually assaulted and abused more times than I can remember. emotionally after every time something would happen- I would be an emotional wreck. I would turn anything that could make me feel better like alcohol or self harm. now however I am okay. I can read questions about the topic and not feel anything. I don't feel sad or like crying or angry or fear. I literally have no feelings. i just feel empty and emotionless. People talk about triggers but I could read any article which goes into depth but I still won't bat an eyelid. What's wrong with me ?