Need support and encouragement😭😭😭

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 I know it's very selfish of me to ask for support because I know there's a lot of women on here TTC and have been for YEARS. I'm still young and stuff but sometimes I feel like I just can't get pregnant. I've been TTC with my fiancée since May and I don't feel like it should be this hard. I have had a miscarriage before, I had to get a D&C....; but I don't think that's the problem here. Maybe I'm trying too hard? My fiancée and my mom keep telling me I'm trying too hard and just to not think about it then it will happen... how can I not?! I long to have a baby sooooo bad and I just break down and cry sometimes cause it's like when I get a period I feel like I lost a baby I didn't even have yet!! And I keep hearing this bounce around in my head "let go And let god" but it's like I try and then I keep doing the stuff I was supposed to let go of like checking my cervical mucus and cervix... also I should mention that I am an extremely impatient person so this feels like eternity 💔I don't know if any of you can relate but yeah..... any words of support or advice won't be dismissed thanks ladies❤️😔