As yall know, today was the day for the Solar Eclipse. Well, my town was one of the towns that got lucky and we could see it perfectly. Well, me and my husband and his family was all outside waiting for it and everyone was talking about how it was going to get pitch black dark and the more it got dark, the more I freaked out. Idk why, but I could tell it was my anxiety acting up. My husband  wasn't near me, he was talking to family so that made me feel more anxious. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack and I felt like I couldn't breathe. Finally, he came over so I was pretty much okay at that point. Well, after the eclipse they had a family dinner, which contained at least 30 people. I wasn't prepared for so many people so I was very awkward and very nervous. I kept following my husband around like a little puppy, which I try my best not to. Once I noticed I was, I would just stand there and try to not be awkward,but I obviously was. I think his family was noticing, so I went outside and sat by myself. My husband came out there and talked to me for a bit and we went back in. I was calmer, but I was still very nervous. When it was time to eat, we sat outside away from the family, because it was overly packed in there. I felt really bad because my husband was taking care of my problems whenever I kept trying to get him to hangout with his family. I've always been shy around his family, considering I'm shy anyways, but my anxiety has gotten worse throughout the years to the point were I can't enjoy my life anymore. And I feel like my husband can't enjoy it either. I've been trying to avoid medication because I've seen family get addicted to it and it just changes them dramatically. But the older I get, the worse it gets. I can't enjoy family gatherings without feeling suffocated, stresses and wanting to cry. I can't drive down the road without thinking "am I going to crash? Am I going to die?". I can't go to the store without thinking people are looking at me or laughing at me. I can't do alot of things anymore. I can't enjoy life. Thankfully I have a supporting husband who understands me so well. I just think it's time to be madicated. So, I'm looking for advice, medication advice and how to possibly to overcome my anxiety. I'm also looking for stories! 💜💜💜