Just why?!

I know we're not supposed to question god or why things happen but I can't help it. I'm so mad and upset. I just went through another miscarriage and i wanna know why? Why do people who don't even want kids or people who are so strung out on drugs able to have kids? Then they have people like myself who struggle. It's not fair. I hate this so much. I'm so tired of hearing people who have kids saying "it'll happen when the times right." I just wanna scream at them and say you don't know what this is like bc you have your babies. You don't know what its like to sit here and cry yourself to sleep. You don't know how hard it is to keep yourself together when all you wanna do is breakdown. It's heart breaking to see new born babies or pregnancy announcements or even a pregnant woman. The worst part is everyone just kind of likes to sweep having a miscarriage under the rug like "oh at least it happened early" or "you can try again." Those words are just soul crushing bc it's like no it's not the same yes,I'll be very happy when I get pregnant again but it's so hard to be happy when it's been taken away from you so many times and the process of just having to start over is exhausting and mentally and physically draining. Sorry for the long post I just feel so drained and even though I don't know any of you ladies y'all know more about what I'm going through than my closes friends and family and I just feel like they don't really wanna hear about this.