is this situation rape i dont think it is the

okay so a couple months ago i was sort of with this guy and i went over to his house he was alone. i'm a virgin and he isnt but things started to get sexual real fast anyway fast forward a bit and we both had our pants off i was very uncomfortable we were just about to have sex i told him i was uncomfortable and that i didn't want to do this but he laughed and he had me pinned down, i was so scared i wanted him to stop and i told him too but he kept going. he wasn't successful trying to fuck because i was squirming in his grip so much so he stopped and when i tried to get out of bed he pulled me towards him and tried to get me to cuddle him and i still wasn't comfortable because we were both still naked, i left his house an hour later and i was traumatized honestly, i did not trust him when it came to sexual things at all and he ended it a month after that because he couldn't see me because i was working too much, anyway now i found a guy who i trust and he wants to have sex too but i'm too scared to actually do so thankfully e lives in the next town over 3 hours away but i'm going to see him next week, he doesn't know about the previous boy but i don't want to have sex