Pregnancy and an eating disorder

pregnancy is hard. Having an eating disorder

And being pregnant is even harder. It's a beautiful and amazing experience to be growing my son Ezra, just wish circumstances within myself were different so I could worry less❤️❤️ it's all worth it! And always will be. Does anyone else struggle with an eating disorder and have trouble with the changes and loss of control w / food that pregnancy entails?? I sit there bawling because in my mind I can never win. Logically I know I'm eating for my son and giving him everything he deserves. Though my eating disorder tells me im disgusting, I will not let it win. Choosing recovery ever single day! For my little boy and for our life 💙💙 pics are from being in the midst of ED and now at 19 weeks pregnant💙