How do you get over someone😫😫

i'm just really having a hard time, it was a toxic relationship and i knew it was a mistake from the start... but i was blinded but the RANDOM acts of kindness that was draw me back to him thinking maybe we had a chance...but i look back at it now and i'm like "f*** he treated me like absolute s*** "

he is so wrong for me in many ways, i used to be so happy about myself but now i question everything, how i look, how i feel etc. he was emotionally draining to my soul. he has depression and is dependant on illicit drugs and it just dragged my mood down with his..

i really need to let him go, but i know if he comes back into my life i'll accept it all over again.

i'm just so upset i let someone take advantage of me like that, i hate him, i hate him so much for making me feel this way 💔 and i hate myself for letting it get this far.