need a chat

last year in September me and my bf had sex when we got together that day he stayed over the next and we had sex and I was pregnant but lost the baby and then I got pregnant and lost that one and then I got pregnant again and had sex again and got pregnant and was pregnant with a little girl lost her at 3 and half month and now we been trying to get pregnant and it feels like because off losing 4 baby's it feel like I can have kids because off it . and now I'm 2 or 3 days late I don't want to do a pregnancy test because I'm scared. and I have a bump and the sizes off pregnancy . pleases help me . photo to show