Cheating ass asks for head

Sooo my very first boyfriend I've ever kissed, fucked , have been involved in any sexual activity with is my first love. I've done everything first with him. He recently cheated on me... I don't trust any other man to see my body or touch. Now that I lost my virginity to him, I sometimes crave sex now. I've been crying every single day(I know I'm pathetic rn) and everyone knows it.. It's been a month since we spoke, and he texted me outta nowhere "I heard you been depressed. Give me head if you truly love and miss me" I cussed him out but I lowkey wanna do it 😂😂😂 these hormones are crazy. But anyway, yeah this is my life rn😩