Anxiety

I imagine this is normal. I'm 12 days away from due date and I've never feared pain of child birth up until lately. I think it's because I really don't know what to expect. I want to do this without the use of drugs.

Also it's the nervousness of how do I take care of a child? What do I do now once the baby is here? Will I get that specially connection that everyone talks about.

Little background on me is that I have chronic depression and before I got pg I was also suffering from anxiety. Lately I've been having driving anxiety. I'm just not feeling "safe" and I'm just worried or have this impending doom like feeling.

I see my ob Tuesday. holiday landed on my normal Monday checkup 🙄 but I mean I guess I'm as ready here at home to have her but I'm just scared shitless of having to raise a tiny human. We've wanted this for so long and now I'm freaking out even more. Like tears running down my face.

Sorry ladies, I just needed to rant. I just think people around me expect me to be tired of being pg and impatient and or excited/happy.

Don't get me wrong this pregnancy has been full of happiness. I'm just now starting to realize I'm about to have a freaking baby!