Am I being stupid? (Please Opinions?)

Luna 🐢 • 🐢

Is it selfish to be afraid to give birth? Because Im TTC and the hasn't come yet, and I want this so much but at the same time I kind of realized that each time I get that BFN i actually cry of sadness but I also feel a relief, and now I know why, and im so ashamed of feeling so scare of hiving birth.

I SEE ALL THEM PREGNANT WOMANS SAYING they are so excited for that moment but here I am so scare and that makes me feel like a bad mom to be, cuz i am not supposed to feel like that I guess, and i don't want have a kid if im gonna be scare of that, i don't know what to do or think, that is just scary for me...