GETTING IT OFF MY CHEST!!

About 6 weeks ago I lost 2 very special ladies in my life my grandmother and two days later my step nan, it's been a crazy couple of months, cried more tears then I thought was possible, fast forward to last night found out that 90% sure my brothers on crack, his lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time, being awake for days then crashing etc, last night after I heard this of course I was in tears cause my brother is the most nicest, generous person you could ever meet had a heart of gold.

While I was telling my ex (sorta still seeing each other) he knew something that he should of told, but after awhile of saying he should of told me then him saying I won't snitch on your brother etc, which he should be telling me cause he loves me oh so much, he starts having a fucking fight with me about how much I don't love him and won't give him another chance etc I'm like right now is why I won't get back together, his been the most un supporting person these last 6 weeks, I'm just about ready to be done with him. But still now he wants an apology from me, all cause I said I'm pissed off and you should of told. I'm going through enough right now with out the shit from him.

Sorry this is all jumbled around, just need to vent how f@&ked; my life is right now 😭😭