I hate when people self diagnose for attention.

But, I've always known I was depressed. Doctors have said so. But, I always felt there was more to it...

Today my biological mom and I were talking and she mentioned manic depression also known as bipolar disorder.

I decided to look up manic depression.

And for the first time in awhile I feel like I finally figured out what is wrong with me. Everything mentioned I relate to. Every symptom. Every feeling. Everything in each article.

And I'm definitely not saying this for attention. But, I feel like I finally know. And now, I just wish I had insurance to go to the doctor, and try and have it be treated.

I'm 19 years old and I've been through a lot. I've dealt with a lot. I've seen a lot. Now I'm jobless. Almost homeless. And I have no insurance and no family.

But, at least I'm pretty sure I know what is wrong for when or if I ever have the chance to see a specialist...