Devastated by bloodwork results

After 18 months ttc I finally think that it's time to give up on having kids. My latest bloodwork results show an FSH of 35! I can't believe it! My first test un March was 21, I started taking CoQ10 and in May it was under 14. And now, when I really thought it would be even lower, it's bloody 35! I can't believe it and I am actually devastated.

My partner has just booked a seminogram which I now see is pointless, as even if he's perfect I obviously can't have kids and I think I must be menopausal at the age of 40 :(

I am so sad and can't stop crying. All this time trying to be healthy, taking supplements etc not to mention the stress, all for nothing.

I am sorry to post all this negative stuff on here but I don't know what else to do.