wish I could be super excited

this is my 4th pregnancy, I'll be 24yrs old next month, got pregnant AND had my first at 17. so I feel like everyone's constantly judging me for getting pregnant & the amount of kids I have. I would love to have a baby shower but I have like zero friends & people on pretend they care about anything on social media, otherwise they wouldn't bother to ask. so I feel like I can't "celebrate" like I should. I've even hidden being pregnant from my mom bc she's the type that puts on a show for fb acting like she's grandma of the year but NEVER sees my kids unless it's holidays or birthdays. just sucks not even having a close mom/daughter relationship. am I being overdramatic?