I had an appointment today to talk about consent forms and whatnot for drug tests and a c-section (emergency). And I read up on the booklet for what all goes on (birth plan, birth, after birth) and I'm just only slightly freaking out. I'm 22 years old but right now I feel like I'm 12 reading this stuff and freaking out.

For one, I'm underweight. So I'm at risk for pre-term labor.

Secondly, all the labor stuff. Like their policy on visitation and the whole paternal thing.

And postpartum depression. I'm scared I'll be at risk for that because I use to have depression until I took meds and put it on the back burner.

And holding my baby when it's born. What if I do it wrong or it doesn't like me????

I'm so stressed and I'm not even half way through this yet 😩😩😩