Fail 😢

Just got my pregnancy lab results from this morning. 2nd round of clomid and 2nd IUI and over $5,000 and counting = 2nd negative pregnancy test...Im so depressed I can't even think. I'm so numb. Been trying since 2015. TTC for our 1st. In my 30's. I feel broken. How do you guys keep yourself from falling into a depression. This hurts like hell. This week alone I heard of 3 accidental/unplanned/surprise pregnancies of people I know. It's not right. I don't understand. How can you even stay positive. It's so exhausting in every form.