He changed his mind

After being together for many years, and him putting off having kids for many years, 6 months ago we agreed that July we would start trying. July and August came and went. And now I'm past my fertile window for September. He has an excuse every month. He says October. I don't trust him. He keeps saying "next month." I know better than to believe him now. I'm feeling so heartbroken and empty.

I know it's not a bad thing to have a partner who wants to be "just us" for a little longer, but I feel a void in my life. I can't make a unilateral decision to have a baby, but apparently he can make one to not.