negative test

has anyone else not wanted to be pregnant but been slightly disappointed when it showed negative ? I am not ready to be pregnant yet at all. I'm on the pill but I've had so many symtoms this month. symptoms I didn't even know where symptoms until I had them and Google it... I finally had my husband pick up a test today and I thought I would feel relief finally knowing yes or no after a month and a half of feeling pregnant.. but I was super sad. I just feel like someone said "here's a puppy " and then came and took the puppy back.