No Self-Esteem

I feel like I have zero self-esteem and no confidence. I get discouraged looking in the mirror because I feel like I'm not pretty like 90% of the girls on Instagram who always look beautiful. I feel like because I don't have a cute button nose that people think I'm ugly and don't want to befriend or talk to me.

I can't even take my husbands compliments. He tells me I'm so beautiful, that he loves me, that he misses me, etc and I don't believe him and i don't know why.

I have gone to the lengths of deleting my social media too because I actually allowed how many likes I got to determine my self worth.

I honestly don't know what to do. I just want to cry out of confusion and lack of self love. Are there any books or podcasts or SOMETHING to help? I am so sick and tired of feeling like nothing but idk what to do.