Unhappy

With sooooooooo much damn drama going on I hate to say but all my feelings toward this pregnancy has gone down the drain!! I can't help to hold my tears asking myself if everything it's my fault? Everything I say or the way I say things makes me a fucked up person, giving my advice and opinion surely don't count then WTF do I have to do?? Getting yelled and being told am not a good mother/wife that I don't shit around the house!! Last time I checked you married me knowing all my defects and yet you accepted me and now we live reality and shit gets sad on my face. I know am not the perfect but if I have to say who to needs to learn more about parenting is YOU (husband) because it sure looks like you don't know shit after having 3 kids and 1 due April 2018 n yet you call me the bad mother!!! Thanks

::Sorry about this post but I have so much in mind I can't stop crying and just remembering everything he says to me and not to mention hasn't been the first time he has said it I think that's what hurts me more 😢 n now that am pregnant I don't even want to see myself in the mirror anymore I guess my self esteem has gone down the drain as well::