Momma went bat crap crazy today

When a simple conversation about maternity leave turns into a huge fight!

Ok.

So maybe I'm a little crazy right now.

But I want to take longer leave to get the whole BF down before going back to work because I want to be able to feed my child. I feel I failed daughter because I had to supplement with her on top of my pumping because I never made enough. I didn't try hard enough at BF and now I have a second chance to get it right and actually bond with my child. So freaking sue me if I want to keep my mother here an extra few freaking weeks because I can't take care of myself a four year old, a newborn and manage BF all at the same time!

He said. Of fork he said that he did it to. He had a child dependent on him and spent sleepless nights with a newborn. Fork that! He didn't loose an ounce of sleep and he played his games whenever the crap he wants to. I don't get that luxury and I never have. So I called him out. I told him he was being obtuse about it.

Then he said I was wrong and shouldn't use big words to try to prove a point I don't have.

And then I started crying saying how he didn't love me and didn't care about me at all.

I don't forking cry people.

So after threatening to sleep on the couch, making good on that promise, throwing pillows and screaming that he was an ash hole. He calmed down. Which called me down. Into more tears. And apologized. And then I apologized. And then he said some stupid.

"Why don't you act more happy? You have everything you could ever want"

BECAUSE MY FACE IS FORKING UNABLE TO BE HAPPY 24/7! EVERYONES IS!!!!

I know I'm crazy right now. He knows I'm crazy right now. Husbands step away from crazy pregnant ladies and throw candy at them and tell they are pretty. Mine still has not learned.