felling depressed

I just woke up randomly at 5.30 in the morning felling depressed am 27 and never thought I would be childless I have 3 babies up in the sky I have all of these things in the way and it's not right I haven't been this upset about it for aWhile I was just thinking It's almost baby loss awareness month and I always thought I would have a big family but I guess it will never happen my guy said am getting to old to start a family I have all this stuff just Stacked up to ware I can't have a family Chronic pain pills not being able to work and not being able to have money to see why I keep lossing my babies and age life is so unfair you got all These idiots having kids that should have no right to be a parent because they don't care about that kid's but there all these great people out there that should have kid's I just need someone to put me in a better mood my boyfriend coming home from work soon and I don't want to be depressed all day