All I want to be is a mom..

Let me start by saying:

-I'm 20

-Not married but in a long term relationship

-Not TTC

My entire life all I've wanted to be is a mom. It's my dream to be a great mother and wife. My boyfriend and I are not trying to get pregnant, but sometimes I have a feeling I might be. The test is always negative, and my heart sinks every time the line doesn't show up.

I don't know how to deal with this longing to be a mom, but I know I'm not financially ready to have a baby yet. Ugh this is hard.