feeling broken.

af decided to show up today after 2 days of spotting but me staying hopeful. My first period since my miscarriage. It's honestly just been a bitter reminder that I'm not pregnant anymore and I can't help but feel like my womb is just a graveyard right now or a rotten apple. I've been trying to stay positive but instead of things getting easier, they're just getting harder. I honestly feel so overwhelmed today. I don't want to leave my room. I don't want to eat. I just feel so broken.