Just needed to vent.

My baby daddy cheated on me and I found out last month. To be honest it didn't bother me as much when I found out (thought is was the pregnancy hormones)🤷🏽‍♀️ but what does bother is that the first few weeks he was such a 🐑 and then started acting like if it was me that needed to apologize. Then sometimes comes around "honey I love you and I want to see our family grow..." but his action said otherwise. Is so confusing! I don't know if hormones are making me delusional but I really feel like running away and stop taking shit... but I don't want to put my daughter and the one coming up in danger. I want to be rational but I don't want to ignore my feelings either? And most important I even feel like I have lost my faith in the middle of everything that's going on