okay I have no one to ask or talk to about this so here it goes

I have been with my boyfriend for 6 years, and at the beginning i was In clouds I was feeling like the luckiest woman! I have never had a man love me and want me so bad like he did

but the past 3 years have been horrible!! fights both verbal, physical.. name calling.. disrespect.. financial abuse.. porn addictions... etc

I have always been a head strong woman so my mom never understood why I stayed.. like I told her it's easier said then done! it's not that easy ... and well I think alot had to do with how overweight I was I truly thought no one would want me now that I look back that is another reason why I stayed.

fast forward I've lost close to 100 pounds .. I look and feel different and the fights continue.. and jealously grows.. well I met this guy...

I know I've always been big on no cheating & trust etc. but the way this guy makes me feel, we have so much fun together.. I'm sneaking around, lieing to my boyfriend.. just to be with this other guy.. and now I'm like FUCK! the plan was to never catch feelings.. just have fun.. and I have zero friends so it was nice to have someone else to hang out with..

but... it happened I'm constantly checking my phone to see if he text, were together every single day. he excites me like no other I mean tmi but I get so wet just being around him.. smh crazy but he basically wants me to leave my boyfriend to be with him.. but I'm not to sure if I can trust this guy.. with my heart.. and even though me and my boyfriends relationship is not the greatest it has been getting better since we had a serious talk and I left for a week . .

the other guy says he wants me and will wait for me.. he has the impression in leaving my boyfriend but now I don't think so.. but it feels weird with my boyfriend now. . he even says so.. things just don't feel right.. idk what to do.. but I feel conflicted and in the middle my mind is racing and I hate this feeling.. FYI me and this other guy has not had sex.. just kissing .. fooling around . and I'm having sex with my bf everyday now.. and the other guy thinks I'm not smh and he is just seeing me at the moment PLEASE help