rainbow baby

I can not believe I'm finally writing this but my baby rainbow baby is finally here! I had been having contractions for a couple of days but had been putting it off. I had just turned 37 weeks that Friday. I was so miserable Saturday and Sunday night. My husband kept telling me that I needed to go in. I kept refusing. Finally early Monday morning I asked him to come home since he works night shift. We left for the hospital at 3:30 a.m. We arrived there and sure enough contractions where 1 to 3 minutes and I was at a 1. Mind you I have a hard time dilating. They called my doctor and the nurse walks in saying my baby will be here at 8 in the morning. I was in shock yet so excited. As soon as I heard my baby cry my heart just melted, I was so thankful for my miracle baby. Things turned all bed in the recovery room. I started bleeding out, my body felt so cold and I felt numb. I just wanted to hold my baby. I was in the recovery room for 4 hours while my baby was with my husband. Due to all the medicine and her giving formula it has mest up my me wanting to breastfeed. I'm trying to pump now but it has been hard. But hey a fed baby is a healthy baby right? I am thankful for the man up there for my rainbow babies. For those of you trying, don't give up hope. I was once in your position too. Baby dust to you all. ❤️