Roller coaster of emotions

So hubby and I only had sex once during the fertile window this month due to a bunch of life issues. Which is fine, I just had the attitude of "it's not going to happen this month." Then at 7dpo, I started cramping kinda like pms, and of course I started to get excited. Is this implantation cramping??? I finally calmed down. Again it's probably not gonna happen this month. Then last night (11dpo/ 3 days to AF) when I went to the bathroom, I noticed THICK white and creamy discharge. I have never seen anything quite like that! And then I got excited again. I even had a dream last night that my husband and I had a daughter. I thought about taking a test this morning, but I didn't want to get my hopes up, and decided to wait for my expected period date. And then this afternoon they started... THE CRAMPS!! The stupid PMS cramps that I always get about 48 hours before. And now I am sobbing! I just feel stupid for getting my hopes up when I knew the chances were low this month. Thanks for reading my rant. Gonna go eat some ice cream now.