I told my best friend about my suicidal thoughts....

And now I regret it. I feel like I’m walking on eggshells now. Anytime I mention I’m having a bad day or feeling depressed she freaks out and thinks I’m going to kill myself. Now I don’t want to tell her anything related to it. If I say I cried today, it’s even worse. Any advice? I feel like she looks at me differently. Also, I’m terrified that she’ll tell my sisters and I begged her not to.

I’ve never actually attempted nor do I think I ever could attempt or follow through.