I lost my very first dog😭😭😭😭😭💙💙💔💔💔

I just had to put my first dog roger down and he lives in Maine with my mom while I'm in no so I didn't even get to see him for he last time....Iv been dreading this day the older he was getting, I can't believe he's really gone this is the first dog I ever lost. He came into my life when I was 6 and he managed to live to 19 1/2 years old despite through the years developing blindness, becoming partially deaf, arthritis, bad kidneys, and swollen heart. I wish I just got to say goodbye to him I will always love you Baby boy now your out of all that pain 💙💙💙😭😭💔