4w3d pregnant with discharge

Today marks 4w3d pregnant for the second time the first one ended up in miscarriage at 6w5d a years ago. Everything was absolutely fine I had only lower back pain for the past 3 days.. and normal symptoms not too heavy.. today I started to spot .. only when wiping after going to the toilet at first pink and then brown .. and again I can't stop thinking about my first miscarriage !

I am sure I am miscarrying when there spotting I know is not a good sign .. from my previous experience I have learnt this ...I can't be checked because is so early so my gynaecologist ( i live in the Netherlands ) can't see me and just told me to wait and see how the next few days will be ... I am feeling disappointed sad and angry .. I can't do anything but rest so I am home for the next 4 days .. I have light cramping on my lower belly on and off but for the rest no symptoms at all .. but then again my first miscarriage started like this ..

I wish all of the pregnant ladies out there the best for their pregnancy and to be an healthy and happy one .. maybe I will. Ever get to experience this myself but reading your stories and happy thought makes me happy for you !