Ok ladies,

I found out I was pregnant on April 1, 2017. I was thinking of my gosh this is a joke. I couldn’t believe it. I was so excited and so nervous. But definitely more excited. I went to the dr in May 1, 2017 and that is when my fiancé (now husband) found out that our sweet baby didn’t have a heartbeat. I was absolutely heartbroken. I have wanted nothing more than to be a mom my entire life. (And yes I’m only 19) On May 4, 2017 I had a D&C; done (I would have rather had it natural) this 20 minute procedure turned into 7 long hours of waiting to go back. I was so terrified because I have never been put to sleep before (at least that I remember, I had open heart surgery when I was 18 months old). I went home did what they told me. Everything was fine. A month or so later my period came back. Ugh so angry. I have gone through so many emotions. A girl I went to school with found out she was pregnant the same day I did and she is a few weeks away from having her sweet baby. I can’t help but envy her. It should be me. I know I shouldn’t be this way but I cant help it. The bills from the ob started coming in, then the bills from the hospital. My husband and I had no idea how we would pay for these huge bills. Today I got the best news in the world. This huge bill we were dreading was covered with financial assistance. This huge weight has been lifted. This is what was holding us back from trying to get pregnant again. Now nothing is holding us back. Baby dust to me and everyone else. Thanks for reading.